its been long days .....being capitive......
somewhere away from love .....willingly.....unwillingly.......cant tell u right now.....

the world seems over for me.......y ?
coz i cant see anyone guiding me........therez no one with me.......therez no one behind me

i waited till my nerves got down.....thinking that she may have fall behind.....coz i
thought i took a huge leap in love.......i gave her trust, loyalty, secrets ......all
my life it is till now......all wrapped in one......
i knw these decisions are not so quickly made......so i gave her time.......
but still she makes me feel .....i m wrong......
that i havent done anything for her........if i had the right to question her.....i wud have asked her
is it me living in a hypothetical world or her ?
coz is it someone whoz affection is she comparing mine too ?
or she is on her own......keeping safe all her.......

its the human tendency.....when they get too much without asking ......they feel no worth
for whatever they get......

she neither wants me alive......nor wants me dead......

mornings have turned totally pathetic for me.....the sun burns me up.....
the surface bites me......with its roughness........
i can see spaces....like someone......showing me my life full of holes......

what kind of a world .....am i upto ?.......
something unvaluable.....or being someones valuable........

decision is made......then y this heart still beats with her........y ?

i have never been so close to anyone......so i may not know until she tells.....if therez
something i cud do......if therez something that cud get things right......

my words arent right ......or my world jumped a whole pit of love and happiness......
the word love .......just means to me as quoted......

"Lost tO One of Valuable Events of life".

i am closed to any change......any promise anyone asks for.........
just longing for the love , i never had from her........

it never existed ....its all she says.......
maybe not in this world......maybe in some other...........
but i believe and my heart beats.....in belief that it did existed......