it all looks dead to me......the life , the moving people.....standing natives..
they all respond acting against me.....but my life goes on......

the people dnt let me forget  her......they time to time make me remind that what all i
do is what they definetly dnt want.......
what if its only that, which i can offer........
then their answers are what silently hurt me.......
all what i do ......i crushed to ashes .....on which they move on.......

just like what all i did for her.....didnt mattered to her.......and she moved on....crushing
each n every feeling ......each n everything i did for her.....killing their existence
in a way that they may never show up in her life again.....

its hard for me to keep her out of mind......coz each n everytime......i try to be myself
it reminds me of her......the way she always pushed me to be good....and trusted i had
some good in me.......

if i did all wrong to her......then y cant she just finish me up......n have a revenge on me
she denies that........

what cud be the extreme punishment of all ur wrong doings........death
i wrapped it and tried to give that.......she denied that too.............

i really dnt knw ......what is she trying to achieve .....keeping all that inside....
making me suffer for the reasons.....

y me ?.....y all this for me ?

y ?.......i didnt asked for it.......n i dnt wanna accept it.........

it feels she wants me to suffer my whole life........being apart from her......n she wont
let me take the easy way out of all this.........

they all ask me....y she left ?
what happened ?.....u loved her ....right ?
what reason she gave u ?......

i knw answers to none of these questions........
n i be their entertainment for the hour..........

they happen to talk bad behind my back......be it anyone......
no one wants to be accompanied by me.......they all want to fullfill all whats good for them
and leaves me exploited.......

they say.......if she didnt needed u ......then what made u expect to stay from us......
u loved her......and she still cudnt be with u.....then what made u think we wud.....
we are surprised .....what made her take so long to take that decision ?

even i wondered .........what made her stay so long ?.......what made her cry the nights?
what made her sing the songs ?....what made her talk at night ?........

she denies every possibility i raise.......
she denies my existence in the race............