Coming back from the college .....
i realized that i hurted her too much.....

In the mrng i had no intention of going to college.....but my friend forced me to
accompany him.....there was gng to be an internal viva for a subject that day....
which i least cared abt .....coz i was upset abt her....

i came back and asked my friend to leave me ....to the nearest point to her house...
he left me at a place .....a little more distant than i thought .....but it was okk
he had to go somewhere opposite to fetch some pending work of his ....

i called her......she didnt picked up my phone.....
what was it ....she was seeing a movie with her friends......

days back i asked her for a movie and she told me .....she wud see it after her exams
and even told me it was meant to be with her friends.....it was a big no
to my invitation.....

i was dissapointed .....but what to do.......
i stayed at the place ....we met for atleast for a month....

it happened ....that our common friends tution and my training place ....were nearby
places......
at that time ...she knew my routine ....to be exact by minutes....

a day i remember ....something amazing happened....
i happened to notice it ....maybe she did or not ......
maybe she did that intentionally or it was just that i was madly in love with her..

i just asked her to show the place i was having my training at.......
she followed to see that place......

just when she tried ....she tried to match up to my steps parallely.....

it made me feel like ....it was a hint ....maybe she gave me
to understand .....she marked her presence beside me ....with every step i took
ahead in life.....

i had gone ....ahead ...
coz i wanted to end the work i had with one of my friends ......
just to remind him of something.....
but he didnt met me....

i left her behind..i felt bad
i kept an eye on her ....and was restless the end the matter asap.....
i asked myself ....seeing at her .....cud that work be held ?
coz i cud see her waiting at a distance ....observing me......
then she just looked away ....as she didnt wanted to bother me......

i just left it ....at the end....
coz i had known the priority of the situation....
it was her....the one who cared abt me.....maybe she did

i sat at that very place ...trying to figure out those days ....and remember them
a person who used to own a shop selling stationary itmes and snacks ......
just recognized me...

he cud sense the change in me.....so he just enquired ?
was i the student who studied at the institute top floor......
to which i answered in negative......

he then understood the matter , and just got back.....
the place may seem nothing to anyone.......but it meant something to me
the place where i spent some time with her......
maybe few minutes ....but i did......

i felt sudden jerks in me...when i realized the days and my deeds ...
i hurted her in that interval too....
trying to force her ....and make her believe in me and committ

for which i curse myself....

something she said to me ....that just hurted me the most

i dnt tell u anything ....coz i fear that u might not attempt to cause urself harm
hearing anything that cud be wrong according to u......

i had nothing to say....and tears rushed down my eyes....
yes i cried ....coz i had heart
the heart that loved her so much, that even after so many tries to turn me against her
this heart never stopped loving her...
and would continue to love her......